My #metoo

Her voice is finally being heard!

I had this amazing vision in 2014 and in that vision, I saw women coming together, I saw all the women throw their head back and let out their cry and that they were heard, they were supported, and it is time. I was in the middle of these women and then I joined them, and I was finally listened too as I also let out my cry.

I was 19 years old when I met him. I never been in love and I know I was not in love with him either, but I was interested in learning more about this taboo relationship, so I stepped into it and learned a lifetime of lessons. The relationship was very abusive both verbally and physically. I remember being thrown around like a little rag doll by this hunky muscular man. I was with him for almost two years before I escaped that life and lifestyle. That is not the story I am here to tell, I am here to tell you about #metoo.

I remember waking up one night, lying in bed next to my boyfriend and feeling strange. I felt like I had a sexual dream or something. I rolled over and went back to sleep.

This happened to me more than a few times until one night I saw something. I saw a shadow along the dark bedroom floor slithering out of my bedroom and closing the door behind them. What happened? What was that? I had this strange feeling come over me like I had been violated. I was confused because it couldn’t be, no it just could not be happening to me.

I just didn’t know what to do or say. I was lost in my own confusion. I stayed quiet until I finally realized what was happening to me and who was doing it.

My boyfriend, the man I was sleeping with every night, it was his brother that was sneaking into our bedroom at night and sexual assaulting me.

Now what? What to do? What the fuck? Well it wasn’t long after I figured it out what was taking place and the violation to me and my body that was taking place that I told.

YES, I TOLD!

Yes, I told the brother I was sleeping with that his brother was sneaking into our bedroom at night and sexually assaulting me, he was fondling me in my sleep. He was fucking finger fucking me while I slept!

I was horrified!

What happened next has been marked in my memory forever because those two brothers started fighting and tearing up all the furniture in every single room of the apartment and even continued outside what seemed like forever.

The sexual predator did physically threaten me at one point with a baseball bat, but I stood my ground and told him he would never assault me again and he never did.

He did end up in prison for 25 years for sexual assault and is now out and free but this is not about him either. This story is about a young woman just beginning her adult life and her life of dealing with sexual assault and mistreatment by men for most of her life.

I have lost jobs because of retaliation from men when I would report their misbehaviors, but I always stood my ground and if I lost a job or a man well I always felt it was time to move on anyway. This probably comes from a generation of don’t make waves, but the time has finally come to change all those old outdated beliefs.

To our men, just know we know you care about us and don’t know what to say or do but I can tell you that we do need to feel loved and supported now because this movement of #metoo and other events of the past year has been bringing up a lot of our pasts that many of us have tried to put behind us.

We ask that you hold space for us as we find our way and our voice which will allow healing to occur.

Pamela Jackson

 

Reset your life

unleash

Reset your life!

I will be offering local workshops and support for those that are ready to make a change in their lives by taking a good long look at themselves, their lives, their self-talk and begin to actively heal the scars of their life. We will be discussing a different topic each week which will helps us to discover our limiting beliefs, patterns and programs that need to be changed in order for you to move forward and step into the person you know you where meant to be.

I will be teaching you new ideas and tools to reset your path. You will be receiving energetic downloads and releasing of past traumas on many layers and levels of your mind, body and spirit. You will grow beyond your wildest dreams!

Let your light shine!

Insert from my 6 week workshop in The Six Steps to Personal Power….

We have patterns, programs that have been anchored in over time, years. Our time here has given us lessons on a spiritual-soul level, we inherited genetic beliefs and karma and we are learning that our daily experiences are imprinting our DNA.

There is nothing in this world that will give you an instant fix, instantly clear all karma to make you a brand-new person, no medicine, no pill and not one modality can do that for you. It takes effort, it takes awareness and it takes daily work.

We are now accepting students who are ready to take their power back instead of letting chance direct their life and choices.  We use the self help dialogue and holistic healing modalities and techniques to uplift our spirits and expand our consciousness and our awareness of our thoughts, habits and emotions.

Workshops begin October 29 and run weekly. Contact us at info@pam-Jackson.com for more details.

 

 

 

 

Discovering our virtues through the patterns in our lives.

To change a pattern is to discover the virtues you are gaining and learning from these experiences.

It is very clear to me I have been gaining the virtues of “Altruism” and “Benevolence” and even more so since the very beginning of 2017; now that I understand that and I am clear on this pattern I can use the Thetahealing® technique to heal and resolve this for me through the creator of all that is and to be a witness as it is done so.

The opposite of altruism is meanness and the opposite of benevolence is meanness, harshness and cruelty. I have dealt with this in all aspects of all my relationships this year and most of my life.

Altruism is the concern for other people. It is a traditional virtue and a core aspect of many religions. It is also defined as someone preforming an action at a cost to themselves and that the benefits are for a third-party individual without compensation or expectation of reciprocity for their action.

As I review the above definition I can see how this is my virtue and has been one of my stories in this lifetime. Things and choices where made when I was 16-18 years old that I never could change and even back then I saw this as a form of altruism but didn’t understand how to resolve it in my life journey. I knew my choices was for the betterment of another even though I suffered and then I stepped into self-punishment soon after for the next 10 years because of that choice and no reward for my actions and choices to put another’s life before mine.

How do I know it is a virtue of altruism? Then and now I choose to stand back for their best, for their welfare and peace but not mine. I am willing to be in emotional and even physical pain of and to suffer for them so that they can have enhancement their life.

Benevolence is an act of kindness, a generous gift. I have seen both, been exposed to both sides of the coin of this virtue. I have had so much meanness, cruelty and harness sent my way the first half of this year. The more I began to set up boundaries the more of this came at me until I became angry at the treatment I was receiving and I stopped it and walked away. Then more of it came at me and I listened to this with benevolence and it touched me and my heart.

Yes, it hurt, it hurt very badly but I took the road of altruism because that seems to be the virtue I am and having been working on gaining. Honestly, I feel I have mastered this virtue and have gain a new energetic perspective on my suffering,

I no longer want to have these negative experiences of the opposites of these two virtues, I am willing to heal and resolve these lessons, so that the lessons can evolve and integrate these virtues into my being into my soul. It was only a couple of weeks ago I ask the creator to download me with the virtue of kindness and wonder and I heard I needed both so it was given to me and a lot of it is what I was told.

I am lucky to have had someone who has shown me and offered me kindness throughout the past 30 years even though at times I didn’t feel as if I deserved it or even wanted it but it was always there for me to have, to feel and to experience. Now that I asked for the virtue of kindness and it was given to me I can now see these two virtues that was not in my awareness until now.

This is what it means to go into the layers of our healing and why we have layers to heal. The wounds are deep and from a very long ago and we have since brought in many people and circumstances to reconfirm and reinforce these layers that we are here to heal which allows us to grow spirituality.

Now that I am aware of the lessons, these virtues my soul has been working so hard for me to obtain I can heal, resolve and integrate on all levels throughout all time and space. Within in days I will begin to see a shift of attitudes in others and myself, I will notice people shifting in and out of my life as things begin to rearrange in my life. I will watch and witness this in awe and wonder as my life because more of what I want and less of what I do not want.

Mystic Pam Jackson.

#MysticPamJackson #mysticpam #integratedenergyworks